CONFINEMENT.THE KEY(S).LIVERPOOL PICTON LIBRARY EXHIBITION.POETRY AND PROSE. BY STEVEN BENSON.

Its so

THEM and

Us;

CONFINED, in an

Exhibition

Of

Frozen

Keys.

———————————————————–

Obviously, this is not (just) about keys, literally. Keys seemed a symbol for MY confinement within my illness; though I have done my best to re-invent myself and keep as much freedom as I (realistically) can.

————————————————————————-

The man said

“Don’t touch the

Keys”IMG_4966

Which made me

Feel

Imprisoned

Even

MORE.

Why did he

Say that?

(I had not

Tried to touch

Them);

People KNOW

You do not

Touch

Exhibits

In

Galleries).

Then he spoke:

I thought,

As if

To say,

Do not

Talk or

Even whisper

In this

Repressed

Whispering

GalleryIMG_4972

—————————————————————-

Trapped in time(I feel, can’t/do not want -quite- to articulate, verbally,what I mean……..)

———————————————————————————————————

Again, behind the symbolism of the key(s), the beautiful but archaic clock, the whispering(the silence, otherwise; ENFORCED) lies my baggage of repression, resentment of homophobia(internalised, particularly then, in the 80s), a lot of it connected with silent stuffy libraries. Rules, confinement, telling me how to be (heterosexual/”normal”).

So the key which is, now, the way OUT(sorry re the clichéd symbolism and metaphor!):….IMG_4968

I feel fairly free, however, in the NEW aery library:”that was then…. this is now”.

——————————————————————————

So, it’s upto ME to keep unlocking the doors, with MY key. I enjoy that part of the library I re-claim:reclaim for NOW/TODAY; and remember that I am a new self-made person and most of the internalised homophobia has gone now, (though the illness remains). This NOT the Hugh Owen Library at Aberystwyth in 1982; it is Liverpool Central Library -AND myself- re-invented, for 2014; so I can unlock the doors of painful memories and let the light in.:)

———————————————————————————-

PS. Photography was allowed!

———————————————————————————

See also this posthttp://towardsutopia.wordpress.com/2013/05/25/the-new-central-libary-liverpool-impressionsramblings-and-more-linksintra-textualities-by-steven-benson/

 

 

Advertisements

3 thoughts on “CONFINEMENT.THE KEY(S).LIVERPOOL PICTON LIBRARY EXHIBITION.POETRY AND PROSE. BY STEVEN BENSON.”

  1. If you haven’t already stumbled upon it, you might appreciate Foucault’s “Madness and Civilization.” The title of chapter II is “The Great Confinement.” I posted an excerpt from that chapterhere.

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s